Intro to Focus 15

Well, where the heck do I begin with this one?!
Never experienced anything like it. Bizarre is just not the most fitting word for something so exotic.
Firstly, the sense of no time is just spot on. It was like I was suddenly stuck in some sort of perceptual molasses, for want of a better description. Like I was slowly rotating in something thick and deep, with different scenarios unfolding within that 'thickness'. I was 'one with' each scenario, energetically...fully connected to it. A few stuck out, from memory. One, on some foreign planet, God knows where. I could sense the massiveness and foreignness of it. But it seemed to be my 'home' at some point in time. Not just some sort of flakey idea, but an actual experiential knowing...a living memory. Mind blowing.

Another was some sort of desert-like empire: Ancient Egypt maybe? I mentally tried to formulate the question of who I was, and began to see someone like an appointed official of sorts, a high priest or government person of sorts?? With appropriate head regalia and facial make up or design? There seemed to be something like a calculating intelligence and maybe haughty arrogance. Oh dear!
And lastly, some sort of black, dark, molasses type energy that was heavy, thick and part of some landscape. If seemed very insistent.

All along, trying to remember who I was, what the ego-self was, was almost an impossibility. It was like trying to remember some distant dream. No frame of reference at all, I simply was perception. Even with trying to recall and connect with former concerns, agitations which were present prior to the exercise was met with a strange, alien distance and loss of comprehension.
Focus 15 is something else!!
When Laurie gently asked me to move back from Focus 15, it sounded like some stranger speaking a foreign language...couldn't fathom what on earth she was trying to communicate. lol

Had the feeling that with all that was being shown to me visually-speaking, which was dependant upon where I focused and what feeling was moving through me at the time, that I could have turned my attention to and been involved in anything according to where I let my final focus rest.
Like a 3-dimensional panorama of alien visions that I was beckoned into...free admission.
The feeling of detachment and strange distance that went through me after I returned to C1 was quite something to behold.
I wanted to go beyond and experience something more, beyond the familiar...and now it's available on tap.

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Advanced Focus 12 - 1st try

Felt committed to do some more exploring. Didn't get much in the way of results from Free Flow 12 so I chose the next interesting one instead with Laurie's voice - Advanced Focus 12.

Preparatory process was a bit of a tight squeeze, will have to remember that.
Was relaxing into it well and thought briefly about how I don't really fit in too well anywhere, and how I'm quite 'over' hearing about everyone else's beliefs, convictions and arguments for their own philosophy etc, then I heard a kind male voice say 'I am your friend'.

I was thinking about what I needed to achieve and I asked 'What am I to do?' to which the male voice replied with a simple and definite 'Nothing'.

I asked about if any of my current financial ventures would be coming to fruition (PP1, GermanRent etc.) and I heard 'One of them will'.

Then I started to drift a bit and lost focus on the exchange and I heard another male voice say 'The dude is gone!'.

Lastly, I was just looking ahead then I saw an image of a man (almost like a younger version of Poppy), hoeing away at his garden at the front of his house. He looked up at me at smiled while hoeing like he was going to talk to me.

Before the exercise finished, I started to feel a very weird heaviness appearing in my lower 'energy body' legs as though they were about to easily exit my physical body, and it could have been a 'helper' who might have assisted in this process.
By simply focusing on letting them go, it advanced the heaviness even more.

I should focus on pushing away any connection with the physical in all the following exercises, to allow separation if it might happen. I should give the mental 'go ahead' symbol to allow anything more to happen.

Unfortunate that the exercise had to end at that point with Laurie saying I should return to full, physical, waking consciousness. Hmm.


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Further intro to Focus 12

Went into focus 10 all okay. Smoothed into focus 12 and felt relaxed and comfortable there. Gradual adapting to the state like last time.

This time not so much happened that I could see.
Saw an image of a long case clock like a grandfather clock fall slowly on its side to the ground. The 'falling' of time/space concepts?

Actually had OBE vision from a point on my right shoulder looking down my arm past my white t-shirt arm sleeve...couldn't work out what I was looking at or who, but it turned out to be my own body. :)

Saw an image of a lady talking to a man and she looked very confident as she swung a key on a leather necklace of sorts, round and round in a circle in front of the man's face like she was saying "Now I've got the solution to my problems". ;) A nice bit of auto-symbolism there perhaps? Signifying my satisfaction with choosing to engage in self-exploration with the Gateway Experience again?

Just some more chatting in head as I hung around in Focus 10 before returning to C1.
Will be great when I get my eye mask to block out all ambient light and 'see' more of the expansiveness in front of me. :)


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Revisiting Focus 12 after so many years

Ordered a nice, new eye mask to use in conjunction with the Hemi-Sync exercises to block out any ambient light. Hope to get it tomorrow in the post as I'll be able to see so much more that it will be amazing.
Used 'Intro to Focus 12' exercise.
Hung around in Focus 10 for a bit and got slightly bored with its 'plain' quality. Then moved into Focus 12 and started to feel a bit different...very gradual.
Even though my room wasn't dark enough to experience the full effect of being in Focus 12, I could somehow sense much was starting to build/unfold in that particular state and I patiently waited, watched and listened.
Was really relaxing into it and I heard someone speak very clearly "Arcturians (we are)". Filed that bit of info away for future research. 'Arcturians'?
Just enjoyed being at this level and saw a screen like a computer screen with my initials 'jrm17871' down at the bottom and two hands apart cupping inward in a gesture to form 'parentheses' or to highlight this description. Like an auto symbolic gesture of personal identification of sorts.
Waiting further and saw something like a mesh-type network of a filmy substance, floating and undulating in a vertical fashion like some sort of barrier right in front of me. Even though the ambient light in the room was probably too strong, it was still quite visible in the grey-ish view in front of me.
Can't wait for the eye mask and how things will DEFINITELY start to be noticed. ;)
Love Focus 12 so much.....can't wait to make it and the higher Focus levels a familiar and long-term friend. Listening to my Hemi-Sync products with my iPhone and using sound-isolating earphones is just the best experience.
Further down the track, after Focus 21 has been experienced and thoroughly integrated, there is always the possibility to make use of the 'Going Home' series (Subject album), to experience Focus 27 in the exercises 'Homecoming' and 'Right of Passage'.
Follow up: So it seems the Arcturians are an apparent race of alien beings?
Arcturians
How curious.