Started out with doing some good resonant tuning prior to the exercise as there doesn't seem to be sufficient time allowed on the recording to do enough, I feel. Felt good and charged when I got to the tuning stage within the exercise and had a great amount of time allocated to create a nice Rebal as well.
Felt totally relaxed and balanced by the time I got to F12. Going slowly from 12 to 21 is quite fascinating, watching the subtle change in feeling in your perceptual field as well as your body becoming more distant, more alien-feeling.
At 21, I patiently waited to see if anything would form and I saw different things start to appear. One seemed like a beautiful lush tropical garden that was growing in front of me, I think.
I got the 'percept' (lol) I should access that state of peaceful inner silence that I have at times, the exquisite quite inner stillness.
As I recalled that feeling and brought it in, something quite remarkable happened. It seemed as though something was flooding toward me and was actually being created at the same instance that it was moving toward and encompassing me. It was like a gentle tsunami of a manifestation of inner silence being created and unfolding immediately around me.
I recoiled in amazement for a moment but realised I should just let go, so I gave it definite permission to move all around me and continue to grow as it was like a blossoming garden of creation, directly connected to the peaceful energy I 'intended' through a deliberate effort.
Fascinating, as Spock would say.
Must remember to start using this technique of intentionally 'conjuring' up a state or idea to let it flourish before me.
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Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Intro Focus 15
Okay, so I've been starting from scratch in a sense for the past week or so on holidays, going through the Focus level exercises from 10 through to 12 on a regular basis, as a form of revision and refamiliarisation with the various states associated with these levels, in order to reach the desired objective of becoming comfortable and familiar with Focus 15 and 21, eventually.
Nothing too extraordinary has occurred with the earlier focus levels, aside from the usual kind of NVC experiences and energy movements in the body whilst in a cataleptic state. No surprises there.
Used the Intro to Focus 15 exercise tonight with Laurie's voice and, short of having minimal time in the preparation process stage (why do they have to do that??), there was ample time to rest in Focus 12 which was a nice balance.
Body became very relaxed and cataleptic...had problem even feeling it, aside from chest gently rising when breathing - quite ideal.
Moved onto Focus 15 as guided and slowly moved from time period to time period with different cultures with different feelings associated with them. One appeared to be a desert-like culture, one more around from the time of Robin Hood, it seems, one was very ancient (almost primitive man) where I could hear the language being spoken and what was most peculiar was that the curious primitive language was somehow vocalising in my throat in a subtle manner as I was listening to the exercise.
I thought of the forest-like culture I lived in when I was moving through that particular time period (Robin Hood-esque) and heard a female voice say a number of times, as if to emphasise the word and to help me remember it - "Glissendon". An approximate spelling of course, as I have no idea. She was very insistent on helping me to remember it. :) Did a little search on it and haven't found much yet.
I love Focus 15! So easy to be in and so utterly fascinating. One could rest in that state for ages and not grow bored or tired of it at all. Focus 12 seems very boring by comparison.
At the beginning of the exercise as I was moving from 12 to 15, I heard a voice saying in a slow-motion fashion: "time......less...." A few times over.
Once again in 15, quite difficult to reconnect with current physical identity and everything associated with it, as though it was just very trivial and inconsequential. Which in a way, from a greater perspective, it is quite possibly very true.
The key is zero expectations and just letting things be, paying attention in a calm and detached manner with all the time in the world. ;) Not very hard to do in that state.
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Nothing too extraordinary has occurred with the earlier focus levels, aside from the usual kind of NVC experiences and energy movements in the body whilst in a cataleptic state. No surprises there.
Used the Intro to Focus 15 exercise tonight with Laurie's voice and, short of having minimal time in the preparation process stage (why do they have to do that??), there was ample time to rest in Focus 12 which was a nice balance.
Body became very relaxed and cataleptic...had problem even feeling it, aside from chest gently rising when breathing - quite ideal.
Moved onto Focus 15 as guided and slowly moved from time period to time period with different cultures with different feelings associated with them. One appeared to be a desert-like culture, one more around from the time of Robin Hood, it seems, one was very ancient (almost primitive man) where I could hear the language being spoken and what was most peculiar was that the curious primitive language was somehow vocalising in my throat in a subtle manner as I was listening to the exercise.
I thought of the forest-like culture I lived in when I was moving through that particular time period (Robin Hood-esque) and heard a female voice say a number of times, as if to emphasise the word and to help me remember it - "Glissendon". An approximate spelling of course, as I have no idea. She was very insistent on helping me to remember it. :) Did a little search on it and haven't found much yet.
I love Focus 15! So easy to be in and so utterly fascinating. One could rest in that state for ages and not grow bored or tired of it at all. Focus 12 seems very boring by comparison.
At the beginning of the exercise as I was moving from 12 to 15, I heard a voice saying in a slow-motion fashion: "time......less...." A few times over.
Once again in 15, quite difficult to reconnect with current physical identity and everything associated with it, as though it was just very trivial and inconsequential. Which in a way, from a greater perspective, it is quite possibly very true.
The key is zero expectations and just letting things be, paying attention in a calm and detached manner with all the time in the world. ;) Not very hard to do in that state.
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Saturday, August 31, 2013
Advanced Focus 10
Created quite a good Rebal around me. Helps to go by the energy flow sound effects to help guide a more reliable shaping of the Rebal balloon. Felt really substantial.
After Robert took me back to '1' and then back to '10' again, one could really sense the HS signals working as the body definitely fell back to 'sleep' again.
Saw an image of a man opening an old-fashioned lock to a large, old wooden door and looking back at me. (Invitation to enter the unknown by my own volition?)
Also saw what looked like a railway tunnel, one of the old-fashioned brick types which had something inviting and curious to it, beckoning entry. :)
Felt really refreshed after coming permanently back to '1' afterwards.
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After Robert took me back to '1' and then back to '10' again, one could really sense the HS signals working as the body definitely fell back to 'sleep' again.
Saw an image of a man opening an old-fashioned lock to a large, old wooden door and looking back at me. (Invitation to enter the unknown by my own volition?)
Also saw what looked like a railway tunnel, one of the old-fashioned brick types which had something inviting and curious to it, beckoning entry. :)
Felt really refreshed after coming permanently back to '1' afterwards.
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Intro to Focus 10
Haven't used the Gateway Experience in such a long time but have instead been making regular use of the new recordings of TMI's Spatial Angle Modulation which are pretty incredible I must say.
Used the first Focus 3 exercise earlier and was amazed by how much in the way of visuals etc were present considering it's such an 'early' Focus state. Very impressive.
Just now I made use of the Intro to Focus 10 as a refresher exercise as I haven't used the GE for such a long time and I thought I should go slowly through the main Focus levels again, getting accustomed to them so I don't unexpectedly 'click out' as can happen with lack of familiarity with them.
Was pretty amazing. As I was relaxing through the 10 point system I had difficulty remembering each instruction that Robert had just given, like an immersive amnesia of sorts, which was fairly amusing. Finally got to 10 and felt very comfortable, relaxed and all the various things that were perceived were done in a balanced, detached way, which would have been helped from all the AYP Deep Meditation practices, I think. A 'witness' in action.
As I was lying there watching whatever unfolded, it then looked like the head outline and the pair of almond-shaped eyes of an alien was resting right in front of me in my field of vision, just watching me intently. It lingered for a while then my attention went to something else and it reappeared once more. Quite persistent.
Went back to '1' while feeling like I wasn't really listening to Robert's instructions, so a good sign I was very detached, relaxed.
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Used the first Focus 3 exercise earlier and was amazed by how much in the way of visuals etc were present considering it's such an 'early' Focus state. Very impressive.
Just now I made use of the Intro to Focus 10 as a refresher exercise as I haven't used the GE for such a long time and I thought I should go slowly through the main Focus levels again, getting accustomed to them so I don't unexpectedly 'click out' as can happen with lack of familiarity with them.
Was pretty amazing. As I was relaxing through the 10 point system I had difficulty remembering each instruction that Robert had just given, like an immersive amnesia of sorts, which was fairly amusing. Finally got to 10 and felt very comfortable, relaxed and all the various things that were perceived were done in a balanced, detached way, which would have been helped from all the AYP Deep Meditation practices, I think. A 'witness' in action.
As I was lying there watching whatever unfolded, it then looked like the head outline and the pair of almond-shaped eyes of an alien was resting right in front of me in my field of vision, just watching me intently. It lingered for a while then my attention went to something else and it reappeared once more. Quite persistent.
Went back to '1' while feeling like I wasn't really listening to Robert's instructions, so a good sign I was very detached, relaxed.
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Thursday, June 7, 2012
Free flow 21 - 2
This time upped the volume to 2 dashes on my iPhone and it was probably the best choice.
Forgot to do the extra resonant tuning before the exercise started which probably didn't energise me enough...felt a bit disinterested too.
Nice and relaxed waiting for Focus 12 to come along. Moved into the light of 21, as the exercise said.
Saw an image of a very happy bride in all her beautiful dress and outfit, she looked so happy and laughing. It was a full length image of her. Then saw another image of (I can't remember) was it an army lady? Also very active and alive.
Heard a very clear remark made about me (but forgot) and I asked if it was true, and they said 'Oh definitely!' or something like that.
Waited for a while in the state of 21 without much happening, then I became aware of the hissing/vibrations sound that you can get prior to an OBE. They were there for a while without my ever noticing. Was I separated or separating?
Earlier I asked for assistance in any way to leave and move beyond into exploration, so maybe it was being given?
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Forgot to do the extra resonant tuning before the exercise started which probably didn't energise me enough...felt a bit disinterested too.
Nice and relaxed waiting for Focus 12 to come along. Moved into the light of 21, as the exercise said.
Saw an image of a very happy bride in all her beautiful dress and outfit, she looked so happy and laughing. It was a full length image of her. Then saw another image of (I can't remember) was it an army lady? Also very active and alive.
Heard a very clear remark made about me (but forgot) and I asked if it was true, and they said 'Oh definitely!' or something like that.
Waited for a while in the state of 21 without much happening, then I became aware of the hissing/vibrations sound that you can get prior to an OBE. They were there for a while without my ever noticing. Was I separated or separating?
Earlier I asked for assistance in any way to leave and move beyond into exploration, so maybe it was being given?
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Wednesday, June 6, 2012
First time Free Flow 21
Ample time once again to allow the body to relax properly and let go in all ways. Before the exercise started however, I did some resonant tuning as the time allowed on the recording is far too short, in my opinion, to get some good 'tuning' in.
Might have to increase the volume up one notch, to see that it's not too loud and is just right as it seems to be a struggle to catch what Laurie is saying at times.
Moved slowly through the numbers in a calm, relaxed manner, but there was also a bit of excitement and anticipation which caused some trepidation/apprehension to be present which was unnecessary and probably affected the ability to fully let go.
As I got to the count of '19' there was then a remarkable change in the sense of both my body becoming very distant and heavy ( a la OBE readiness feeling) and the sense of space in front of my visual field suddenly became energetically alive and impregnated with potential. It was very much like the visual field was a whole Universe of information/energetic environments that was/were ready to appear according to whatever/wherever my focus would be.
I tried to focus on a spot and imagine a point of light and move toward it but to no avail really.
Instead, I then just watched whatever unfold in front of me, and then I saw something coalesce into the shape of a blonde woman with wavy hair in curls moving forward slowly in my direction at an angle, looking somewhat preoccupied and thoughtful in her expression.
After that, I then saw a lady and her husband moving in my direction at an angle again. She seemed very familiar and looked like Val Malley, Mum's old friend who passed away years earlier.
After a little while I saw a view of trees outside in the light, and an image or two which to me represented an opening or doorway. One which was the top of a street which sloped up to an apex with the light of the sky beyond it, like in San Francisco. It felt to me like a beckoning to what was a gateway to beyond.
I also saw at one stage a field of light coming in from the left which stayed there for a while.
Near the beginning of the exercise I asked for help from those in spirit to help me to venture either out of my body or further into the realms of Focus 21. Felt feminine energy present, I think.
I sensed that with time, practicing letting go and becoming more at ease and familiar with the terrain and the feeling of Focus 21 that I would certainly become more involved in interacting with these energetic places.
Very encouraging.
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Might have to increase the volume up one notch, to see that it's not too loud and is just right as it seems to be a struggle to catch what Laurie is saying at times.
Moved slowly through the numbers in a calm, relaxed manner, but there was also a bit of excitement and anticipation which caused some trepidation/apprehension to be present which was unnecessary and probably affected the ability to fully let go.
As I got to the count of '19' there was then a remarkable change in the sense of both my body becoming very distant and heavy ( a la OBE readiness feeling) and the sense of space in front of my visual field suddenly became energetically alive and impregnated with potential. It was very much like the visual field was a whole Universe of information/energetic environments that was/were ready to appear according to whatever/wherever my focus would be.
I tried to focus on a spot and imagine a point of light and move toward it but to no avail really.
Instead, I then just watched whatever unfold in front of me, and then I saw something coalesce into the shape of a blonde woman with wavy hair in curls moving forward slowly in my direction at an angle, looking somewhat preoccupied and thoughtful in her expression.
After that, I then saw a lady and her husband moving in my direction at an angle again. She seemed very familiar and looked like Val Malley, Mum's old friend who passed away years earlier.
After a little while I saw a view of trees outside in the light, and an image or two which to me represented an opening or doorway. One which was the top of a street which sloped up to an apex with the light of the sky beyond it, like in San Francisco. It felt to me like a beckoning to what was a gateway to beyond.
I also saw at one stage a field of light coming in from the left which stayed there for a while.
Near the beginning of the exercise I asked for help from those in spirit to help me to venture either out of my body or further into the realms of Focus 21. Felt feminine energy present, I think.
I sensed that with time, practicing letting go and becoming more at ease and familiar with the terrain and the feeling of Focus 21 that I would certainly become more involved in interacting with these energetic places.
Very encouraging.
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Tuesday, June 5, 2012
First time Intro Focus 21
On the recording it takes quite a while to go from 10 to 12 which is really good. Ample time to relax and let go of the body properly. Not the usual 'rush' which is annoying.
Slowly got taken from 12 up to 21. Was a bit hard to hear Laurie's count at times but eventually adjusted to the softer volume.
Didn't seem too dramatic once at 21. Had a feeling of gentle 'potential' to it. Tried to imagine moving into the white light of 21, but all I could imagine was like a twisting vortex tunnel coming toward me and engulfing me. Didn't feel too convincing but felt something.
Tried seeing what was in the darkness 'out there' and felt a whole lot of potent potential, sort of waiting to be either activated or accessed.
I sort of tried to envisage moving towards something and firstly saw something like two different levels, like two ramps separating from each other and rising.
Then I became aware of a door and it seemed a way off, like it was at the end of a tunnel which had rings or layers to it, like in a vacuum tube of a vacuum cleaner. I heard a voice, not my own, distinctly say "Doorway..........A doorway."
Obviously I was being enticed, encouraged or shown what was there waiting for me.
At the end of the experience I kept hearing "Usher" which I just ignored and didn't make the connection that someone was saying they were probably acting as an Usher, that is 'a doorkeeper/an attendant who is employed to accompany someone.'
How very fitting. :)
The time spent in 21 seems far too limited in the 'Intro' exercise, so hopefully the Free Flow version has more time allocated to that state. Given that you enter the 'light of Focus 21' rather than slowly count up towards it, it would seem that there would be greater opportunity available there.
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Slowly got taken from 12 up to 21. Was a bit hard to hear Laurie's count at times but eventually adjusted to the softer volume.
Didn't seem too dramatic once at 21. Had a feeling of gentle 'potential' to it. Tried to imagine moving into the white light of 21, but all I could imagine was like a twisting vortex tunnel coming toward me and engulfing me. Didn't feel too convincing but felt something.
Tried seeing what was in the darkness 'out there' and felt a whole lot of potent potential, sort of waiting to be either activated or accessed.
I sort of tried to envisage moving towards something and firstly saw something like two different levels, like two ramps separating from each other and rising.
Then I became aware of a door and it seemed a way off, like it was at the end of a tunnel which had rings or layers to it, like in a vacuum tube of a vacuum cleaner. I heard a voice, not my own, distinctly say "Doorway..........A doorway."
Obviously I was being enticed, encouraged or shown what was there waiting for me.
At the end of the experience I kept hearing "Usher" which I just ignored and didn't make the connection that someone was saying they were probably acting as an Usher, that is 'a doorkeeper/an attendant who is employed to accompany someone.'
How very fitting. :)
The time spent in 21 seems far too limited in the 'Intro' exercise, so hopefully the Free Flow version has more time allocated to that state. Given that you enter the 'light of Focus 21' rather than slowly count up towards it, it would seem that there would be greater opportunity available there.
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